Rondel Supreme of Unbeing for Hoopers

Close your eyes and spin.

The swimminess of poetry,

letters loosed, swallowed with glee,

dissolve with each turn. Unpin

thought and let it go. The din

of the daily erases with velocity.

Close your eyes and spin

the swimminess of poetry.

Pop and static, you’re the song in

heavy rotation, a dark ocean of free

forgotten foreverness. You can’t un-be?

Oh, here you can. Ha, ha! A win

to close your eyes and spin

the swimminess of poetry.

Sonnet for a Sad Dream

There’s a way to pack the chandelier

that no longer fits in with the rest

of your furniture’s bleak and blear.

Each crystal dangled undressed

except for its prisms, twisted on wires

of twilight metal. Use tissue paper.

No. Toss them in a glass box, amplifier

of their song. Unsayable stars, capable

of anything, ask them about the basement.

They will tell you how broodiness

and longing can build a monument

to the wrought scrollwork of sadness,

how once taut links will ease to the floor,

relaxed. Inside each teardrop, the salt of furor.

Self-Portrait at 44

When I was seven years old
I was sure I was going blind.

I sat on the floor of the bedroom
and stared down the calico pattern on the bedspread
until the little yellow flowers buzzed

into apple red background blurriness.

A stuffed duck dissolved into a furry moon.

The curtains, unsuccessful in their ruffles,

disappeared into the light of outside.

I never told my mother.

How could I harpoon her heart?

“My youngest daughter can’t see.”

Focus and unfocus,
it’s a trick I’ve played through the years.

I still don’t know what I want.

Sometimes I can’t see the beauty in my own neighborhood –

the two workmen on top of the roof across the street

who stretch out, smoke, and laugh into the clouds they make,

or the little girl who tears apart  hydrangeas for confetti.

Command plus plus the view,

take up wearing glasses. See?

Sometimes I’m happy but music pushes me into a lump of tears

and then the song ends and the DJ comes on
with the little jingle that announces the station 

and I feel foolish because the whole day was there all along.

That’s what I want.

For a Young Friend Who Wants a Bra

Nothing yet.

Soon enough the fabric

buckles, deploys boys.

Your lively thoughts play

down the street, overheard

by mothers who wish

they had the energy,

the same instrumentation

of imagination.

Memory shames.

I kept a growth chart

of breast progress,

held a loopy washcloth

over my chest in the tub

and cupped my hands

over the nothing

that was there. I hoped,

and then I lost interest,

and packed a bag

to run away from home.

I lost interest in that too,

the idea sillier than

saving my nickels

for a chihuahua.

Don’t worry.

You’ll grow as you’ve grown,

an arrangement so fetching

you won’t even notice, lost

in the drowsy navigation

of your beautiful days.

This Title Needs You To Read It As a Title

This line has a syllable count of ten,

and this line has eight syllables.

This line makes you think of bears.

This line is set apart from the rest.

This line is nothing without you, reader.

Maybe only the punctuation will remain.

                                                       ,              .

Nope, not even that, this line says.

This line won’t finish itself, it needs me.

Ah, but the day?

The day doesn’t need me to finish.

Ten syllabled trees will sway

and darken against the sky without me,

eight syllables of footsteps will own the pavement,

bears will still grizzle or be stuffed cuddlers.

This line will still be lonely, maybe,

or original. Or both.

All of these lines need you.

The Sixth of February Lemon Cake

This is the cake I baked for my mother's birthday. She loves lemon! So do I, so I've been experimenting with lemon cake recipes, tweaking and adding, subtracting, and tweaking again. This one is based on a Martha Stewart cake recipe which I found on the Everyday Food website, but I changed some of the ingredients and added a couple. This is a keeper, and I'm calling it The Sixth of February, because that's my mother's birthday. If you ask me for a lemon cake, and I like you, this is what you'll get.

The Sixth of February Lemon Cake

Ingredients

1 cup (2 sticks) of unsalted butter, room temperature, plus a bit more for the pans

3 cups cake flour (I used Softasilk)

1 tbsp. baking powder

1 tsp. salt

1 3/4 cups sugar

4 large eggs

2 tsp. pure vanilla extract

1 1/4 cups buttermilk

grated rind of 1 meyer lemon

juice of 1 meyer lemon

1 jar of Dickson's Lemon Curd

Preheat the oven to 350.  Butter two 8-by-2 inch round cake pans; line the bottoms with parchment paper. (This is a pain in the rear. I trace the bottom of the pan on the parchment paper, cut it out, and then use the first one as a pattern for the second. If anyone has a better suggestion, I'm all ears!) Butter the parchment once you've placed it in the pan, and dust with flour. Tap out all the excess. In a medium bowl, sift together the flour, salt, and baking powder. Set it aside. Grate the rind of the lemon into a small bowl. Halve the lemon and juice it, taking care not to let seeds into the juice. Use the paddle attachment on your mixer, and beat the butter and the sugar until light and fluffy. Be sure to scrape down the sides of the bowl as needed. Beat in the eggs one at a time and add the vanilla. With the mixer on low, add the flour mixture a little at a time, alternating with the buttermilk. Add the juice of the lemon and the lemon rind last, and mix on low until it's blended.

Divide the batter between the two pans evenly, smooth with a rubber spatula, and tap the pans on the counter to release any air bubbles. Bake for 30-35 minutes, rotating the pans in the middle of the baking process. Put the pans on a wire rack to cool for 20 minutes, then flip, and peel off the parchment. Invert the cakes on the racks and let them continue to cool with the top sides up.

When the cakes are cooled, use a serrated knife and trim the tops of the cakes to make them level. (What a shame! You'll have to taste the extra pieces!) Split each layer into two so you have a total of four layers. Place the bottom layer on a plate or cake stand and with an offset spatula top with some lemon curd, spreading it evenly but leaving an inch of bare cake on the outer edge. Place the second layer on top, and repeat the process until you get to the top of the cake. 

For frosting, you're on your own. Don't feel cheated. I'm not much for measuring during this process, I test as I go along. I make a simple buttercream frosting (butter, confectioner's sugar, vanilla, dash of milk), and add a little lemon juice to it. I'm not much for measuring during this process, I test as I go along, which is why you're on your own. Have fun!

Valentine

You are everywhere, and covered in snow

in a park where no one even sleeps anymore.

You are the various conversations

between black gloved, very important men.

You are the screen door flung wide

that everyone tries to latch shut.

Whenever I return to you, a fight breaks out,

or someone shoves an eggplant in a tuba.

Oh, my blastoff of lions, my symphony of planets!

I write your name in water spilled on the countertop

and cover myself in books. I lie down in their pages

and swim around in all those letters. You

are in the story that is very near the sea, see?

I am trying to take you home with me.

Other People’s Happiness

Other people’s happiness

is not yours to hold. You

weren’t there for the flower

made of felt,  last night’s

baking scent still snugged

in the rafters, the titmouse

on the feeder. Confess,

that under your system,

everyone else’s happiness

may be as important to you

but you will never understand it.

The seeds of thistles, glory

of fire, temptress spots of the body,

cracked hands prized with dirt,

bootclack on the sidewalk,

salt spit at the corner of the mouth,

blue sky wine.

What pleases you

is not what pleases others,

and tapers to monosyllabic

in the attempt:

Street lamp winks off at dawn,

leaves creak shut, curl,

lift in the sun.

What other people own.